Once More!

Restarting my weight-loss effort ONE! MORE! TIME!

I even tried the Cabbage Soup Diet!!

When I first reached 62 kgs, I learned about the cabbage soup diet from a colleague. I had been gaining weight consistently for about 2 years — going from my normal weight of 53 kgs to 62 kgs. So, OF COURSE!, I was going to try the cabbage soup diet. And, it worked. I lost 2 kgs.

For a few days. Then, I gained it all back. I didn’t stop gaining until I reached 73. I was wrong in following a fad diet. But apparently, the fad diet wasn’t the problem. Over my decades of trying to get lean and fit, I have tried the healthiest of diets and work-outs and made progress. But NOTHING REALLY LASTS!

Friends Since Ever!

The story of my lifelong friendship with extra weight started young. I was always fat. I was the heaviest girl in school, in college, at work, wherever. Or at least among the heaviest ones. And while I never really worried about my weight, I was always aware of it, in an almost all-pervasive way. So, every now and then, I would try something to lose some weight. Some diet. Some workout. Some fast. Some something. But each time I have lost weight, I have gained it all back. And some more.

Sometimes, I win! Or so I think.

The most successful I have ever been was a few years back, when I went down from 75-76 kgs to 59. It was a slow and steady loss. Some 16–17 kgs lost over 15–16 months. I was eating right, I was walking, running, working out (and I was stressed about my work/studies, and that helped :) ). I was only a few kgs away from my target weight. It was so exciting. For the first time in a long long time, I was fitting into small clothes. I could see myself fitting into my old, size 28 jeans in no time. I hiked up hills and climbed stairs so easily. I could jog/run for miles, something I hadn’t been able to do ever in my life. It was awesome!

And then some small work/study situation changed. And poof! Gone! In the following 1–1.5 years, I didn’t just go back to 73, or 75, or even 76, I reached 78 at one point.

I guess I don’t give up easy!

Last year, I saw another major success. Went down to 65. I was elated. I was recording my diet and weight on a daily basis. This time, I was more interested in getting healthy overall rather than in losing weight. I’ve been having some undiagnosed issues with body / joint pain since some time, and I wanted to try eating/avoiding some food types and working out regularly to see if that would help. I was eating healthy food, working out almost daily, fasting once a week, staying hydrated, not keeping junk food at home— basically doing everything you do when following a healthy lifestyle. And it was working.

Until I had to take some urgent travels and my routine completely broke. I kept trying for some more time — but the change in environment and food choices around me quickly took over, and this morning, I was 76 and a half kgs heavy.

I’m giving it another shot!

I am going to give it another shot. It’s going be very hard. It was very hard last time too. But I had got in the groove. This time, it’ll be harder. Right after I finish writing this post, I am going to make myself a good lunch. And I’m pretty sure that just like yesterday or the day before, I won’t be able to gather the energy that I need to work out. So I don’t really know what I will do this time. But I sure want to get rid of the extra fat I can feel on my cheeks. I sure want to be able to fit into my clothes (my wardrobe has almost nothing that I can wear now). And I definitely want my joint pain to subside.

Let’s Go!

I’m restarting my weight-loss effort today. Just like each time, this time too my hope is that I’ll make it through. And of course, that I won’t have to do it again.